heart talk about u

I don't wanna loving u again!! u know why? cause that love make me weak, feel lonely when the time u have to go and left me with million memories which killed my self slowly. it was not easy moment when I became an anomie person because of u.. tried to survive from break down, but u never beside of me, u never know, didn't u?! our story killed my own believes. that's about us at the past.

and u turn back now.. don't know what I feel,, too many words and bitter smile from them to push me, then I just keep u in the deepest of my mind until they believe that everything it's ok for me. then we were made big moments for two month, something strange in my feeling. time is running slowly without u. something wrong every I spend the time alone cause there is your shadow in my mind,,also in my side always, trying to touch my heart but I resistance for it. I hate this time.. I thinking of u,, I needing,, Iam so tired now,, we in the same directions but we walking in the different ways. truly,,wanna kill this feeling,, wanna lost a lust between us and make gonna be alright. breathing so hard here.. try make it go away it's so hard to do. u know? why nothing space in my memory for us more? the reason cause I don't wanna crush on u twice or three times. I don't wanna depend on u and I don't wanna keep our memory too much cause I know u so much, but in the fact maybe I don't know anything about u.